True Love :* :*

How can I begin to say this?
How can I begin to describe what I feel within me?
How can I start?


The feeling I feel right now is hunger, hunger for the man I love..hunger for him to be next to me..
Oh how I long for this to happen..how I'm yearning and burning inside to have him by my side..

He is the man I love..
The man of my dreams..
The one I long for
The one who comforts me
The one who can dry my tears by a single word, miles apart on the phone
The one who can lift my soul up high
The one who cheers me up when I'm down
The one who makes me smile when everything feels wrong
The ONLY one who captured my heart
And he is the man I love

Long story short: he loves me, I love him, we want to get married, but in order for that to happen,
A few things must happen at first, and that's why we have to wait...
And waiting sucks! Yes! It sucks!
U know why?? Cuz ALL I think about is him, all I think about is when when when?
Ti3abt! Malaait! 5alaaa9 I want him ib ma3na il kalima, more so I need him.. I need him by my side at night, I need him with me 24\7, is that too much to ask?
Ya3ny I'm willing to do ANYTHING for that to happen..ANYTHING
Yes, that's how much I love him...he's everything I wish for, he's my past,present, and future...
He's my everything, literally my everything..

So tell me..
How can I go through this? How can I wait another year or so when I love him this much?
What shall I do? Stop my heart from beating his name? Stop myself from breathing his air?
Tell me...

How can I put this yearning and longing on hold and live the present, the reality, where he lives in a house, far away from ours, where we are not literally together (side by side), where we can't go out on a date together, where the only thing we can do is talk on the phone?
Please tell me how and save my soul from drowning...

I love him sooo much with all my heart, body, and soul ily ga3da ayin oo aktib 3anna fe blogs!
Amooooot feeh akthar min ildinyah oo ma feeha...and the best part is, we exchange the same feeling..

I guess I have to look at the bright part, ena atleast we get to talk to each other on the fone and hear each other's voices day and night..
But still, that burning feeling I get in the middle of my body, way deep into my heart, touching my soul is hard to erase
And I can't
And I won't
U know why?...becuz being in love and extremely in love means u get to feel everything to the ultimate extent of it..
And that's why, yearning, longing, burning, desperation, craziness, happiness, comfort, ecstacy, thrill, adrenalin rush, dizziness, shyness, sadness all are a recipe for love
Becuz love has its ups and downs, weaknesses and strongness, and it doesn't be called love when there are no stormy weathers to survive, becuz real love is supported on strong bases, and a base gets stronger by witnessing and living through different kind of moments that strengthen the love that is shared by two people..
And this is how u know ur love is true, when u survive the stormy weathers together
That's when u know u were really meant to be
Becuz when its true and strong and most of all, real it can go through anything no matter how hard it is..

Sometimes I just wish things were simpler for us, and that we didn't have to go through all this waiting to get married like normal people
I wish I can close my eyes and open them to the sight of us sitting on the sofa "kosha" at our wedding night ...
Wouldn't it be fun if we all could forward the hard parts of our lives and pause it whenever we want?

Ilmohem 6ala3t ily fe galby al7eeen oo wayed erte7t..
Its good I have u guys, cuz sometimes magdar I tell him these stuff cuz b3dain he'll think ana 7anna:p although 7araam maskeen
He doesn't bass still.. I know ana paranoid bass lail7eeeen
But if only we could move our life the way we want to just like a puppet show, wouldn't we all never have to go through the
Hard parts whether we're together or alone..
But we wouldn't be who we are today.. Its the moments in our lives that make us who we are and I honestly believe that.. Becuz walla lo not every SINGLE thing that happend in my life (the day we started our journey) to this day..ma bakoun 3arfa ma3na il7ob
Cuz seriously I never knew I could love a person this much ila lama I loved Him..






















"OH HOW I LONG FOR THIS TO HAPPEN..."







Alla e7af'9ik ly ya rab we 5aleeek ly
Ameeeen inshalla;** oo raby la ya7remny minik ya a'3la ma fil koun
Yaly myaniny oo m6ayer ly 3agly :p
I love u 7ayaaaaty ;)

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"Quotes"

"Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live."



"Between the optimist and the pessimist, the difference is droll. The optimist sees the doughnut; the pessimist the hole!"



“Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see Life with a clearer view again.”




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I was surfing the internet, and i found these quotes that touched me, so i thought i'd like to share them all with u my luveez:*


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My Diary (23)

Maya reached the restaurant, parked her car, and entered. As she was just about to ask for the reservation name, she saw him sitting in a cosy square table for two on the right. She saw the man she was going to spend the rest of her life with, the man she loved, and whom most importantly loved her back.
5aled stood up, pulled out the chair for her, and sat facing her. He was in awe, he was just mesmorized by the way she looked. To him, she was like the moon between all the small stars in the sky. He was blindsided, he didn't see anything or anyone but her, and she knew that. She loved the fact that he only had eyes for her; it made her feel special.
They ordered their food and drinks.
As soon as the waiter left, 5aled took Maya's hand and kissed the top of it.
He saw her face turn red, as she pulled her hand away and looked down.
Maya becoming shy only made 5aled feel lustier, although his intentions were pure.
"sh7ilweha murty" 5aled smiled as he looked deeply into her eyelinered eyes
"hehehe" Maya blushed, "3yoon rayly il 7ilwa" she smiled
"amooot feej ya b3d galby inty"
"ana amoot feek akthar"

2 hours later, they left the restaurant.
"ma 7alaina" Maya reminded 5aled
"inty my dessert" 5aled joked as he kissed the side of her forehead, breathing in her sweet scent.
"hahahaha" Maya laughed shyly, holding his hand
"inzain ana bagoolaj shino... shrayech we leave ur car here and u send the driver to come take it, and u my girl come ride with me in my car..."
"umm ok bass shloun? my car key is with me"
"3adee baby give it to me ba5alee m3a the waiter, let ur driver get it from him"
"ok" Maya handed him the key

2 minutes later he was back
he put his arms around her and walked together to his car
they drove around not knowing were to buy dessert from
"5a6rich fe icecream?" 5aled asked, willing to do anything she wanted just to make her happy
"ummm la 5a6ry fe ummmm" Maya was thinking, as he interrupted her
"et3arfeen ana 5a6ry fe shino?"
"shino"
"feej"
Maya felt a million butterflies fly all over her stomach
Maya bit her lower lip and look down, flustered as 5aled leaned in and brushed his lips against hers and whispered "i love u" and then kissed her deeply but gently for the first time.
Maya didn't know what to do, say, or how to react... he was her husband, so it was ok for them to do whatever they wanted, but still she didn't know what to say or how to even kiss him back, so she just went quiet and kept her lips still for him to do the work and take the lead.
5aled loved that Maya didn't know to move her lips, he felt powerful, he felt in control, and that made him want to teach her more.
"like this" he whispered as he moved his lips in between hers

They made out for a long time

"it's getting late" Maya said, breathing hard, pushing herself away from him
"bass abeeej" 5aled pulled her closer to him and hugged her so tight
"ana b3ad.. bass lazim arja3 my dad would get mad if i didn't" she said as she was hugging him tighter
she looked at him one last look, giving him the green light to kiss her one more time
and so he did.. he kissed her like it was the last kiss ever, like there was no next time, like it was his first hungry kiss ever, like he didn't wanna let go
"i love u" Maya whispered in his ear as she gave him a wet kiss on his ear which drived him nuts and made him want her more
"please latroo7een..timayy aeej" 5aled begged as he squeezed her body tighter
"magdar 5aloody..u know i want to stay with u bass magdar...i have to get going" she looked at him one more time, this time, she made the move and kissed his lips that were begging for her to suck on them...she pulled away.. licked her lips, tasting the remainder of his lips on hers and pulling back from him, laying her back straightly on the seat...
"please 5aloody take me home 7abeeby" Maya said in a cute voice that made his insides melt
he kissed her cheeck and said "ok bawadeej ilbait...3la shar6 i buy u icecream" he smiled
"hahah ok that's fair" she smiled looking at him

After buying 2 oreo McFlurry's, they headed to her house, eating their flurry's.
On their way, as they stopped in the traffic, Maya saw a young woman in her mid 20's with a young boy, probably around 2 years old staring over at 5aled
"baby those people are looking at you..do they know u?" Maya asked thinking they might be related or something, sooner did she know they were more than related...they were his family...i mean HIS family.


5aled turned over to look at them, he felt the world go round in slow motion, he fealt each heart beat, he felt...numb.
"BABA....BABA....." shouted the little boy beating on the glass window of the car, as Maya froze, not believing what she just heard.

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Sorry it's short..
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My Diary (22)

Hello my friends! ;D
So sorry guyz for taking so long to continue my story due to some difficult circumstances..
But all is good now :)
I'm going to continue my lovely story which i missed writing SO much ;p
i'm going to finish it soon and then i'll be posting random posts like my previous posts ;p
SHRAYKUM? ;p good or bad idea?? ;p
i'll post random stuff, and u guys could write down ur oppinions and comments as i'd love to read them :)
And later on i might write another story ;)

*ok i have a question, do u guys WANT 'Tahani' to live or shall i KILL her? i dnt knw what to do with her anymore LOL ;p


P.S. if there's one thing i've learned in the last couple of weeks, it's that health is the most important thing in life, and no amount of money can buy health, it only comes from God.

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Previously on My Diary:


She took one last look of herself...and walked down the stairs to 5aled...her now "husband"...As she was walking towards him, smiling at all the family members there.. she wondered what did her mother mean buy giving her that piece of advice... 'what am i gonna do ya3ny? have sex with him?'...........

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5 months after 5aled and Maya's milcha:

Maya was looking at a wedding magazine, trying to choose a wedding dress for her wedding that was coming soon. She was planing on a small wedding party, with close family and friends whom she all knew and cared about. She didn't want one of those fancy parties in one of the biggest hotels, having half of Bahrain in her guest list, half of them coming happy for her and the rest jealous or coming to watch the wedding, what they did and what they didn't do, which singer they brought, which designer was her dress made by, and then leaving the wedding early morning critisizing what they didn't like. Maya wanted that day to be special, she wanted that day to last forever in her mind, she wanted it to be perfect.

The invitations were going out soon, and she was so frustrated she still didn't even buy a wedding dress! Each time she tried one, she liked the one she tried after. She was getting so confused, she wanted to wear something that said: MAYA. Where can she find one of these?


Maya's phone started ringing
"shit" she said fishing for her phone under the pile of magazines in front of her.
"aloo" she said
"hala 7abeebty, shlonach?" 5aled's deep sexy voice made her relax
"ana b5air baby, inta shlonak?" she asked as she layed her back against the sofa chair.
"ana tamaam 7abeebty, shbitsaween illaila?" 5aled teased, he knew they had plans for dinner that night, but he loved teasing Maya.
"DINNER" Maya said loudly, laughing at him
"hahahaha" 5aled laughed "ok ok i'm taking u to dinner, u don't have to beg" 5aled continued teasing her
"hahaha 5alooooody" Maya said in the most cutest voice 5aled has ever heard.
"3yoon 5aloody" 5aled said, feeling his heart beat faster
"a7ibik" Maya said smiling with butterflies in her stomach
"shinow?" 5aled said, as if he didn't hear her the first time
"a7ibik" Maya said it again, blushing this time
"shinow? shgilty?" 5aled asked, just wanting to hear that word in her sweet voice
"a7ibik 5alooody a7ibik"
"haa?" 5aled kept pretending he didn't hear her so she would repeat saying that word to him
"ohooo 5aled! bass tabeeny agoolak a7ibik mara thaanya! MOB GAYLATLAK" Maya said laughing with a big smile on her face acting mad, but her knew her better
"hahahahhaha"
"hahahahahahah" they laughed together on the phone

54 minutes later Maya finally closed the phone and went back to flipping her magazine. They always spent hours talking on the phone, they never got enough of each other.
After finishing going over a few bridewear magazines, Maya saw her watch, 'yikes! it's 6:30! i have to get ready for my date' Maya literally ran into the bathroom, took off all her clothes, ran the water, and steped into the shower, feeling the warm water fall down from her head to her toes, sponging herself with her new perfume bodyshower 5aled gave her as a present with a perfume bottle.


On the other hand, 5aled was so excited to see Maya, he felt a mixture of emotions, he felt happy, sexy, lusty. He just wanted her in his arms, he couldn't wait til he laid eyes on her..
He started getting ready, it seemed to him that time was on slow motion! he felt each minute pass by like 10. He wanted time to fly, he wanted to close his eyes and open them seeing Maya in front of him. But of course he couldn't do that, he like every other person in this world, had to wait. So that's what he did, he got ready and waited.
As he waited he looked at himself in the mirror and thought, 'Maya is gonna like this on me'.
He wore his new thob (dishdaasha;p), and red '3itra. He really did look sexy in that.
it was 7:30 p.m now and their dinner reservation wasn't until 8, so he decided to kill time by watching tv.

Maya was in her room, struggling to decide on what to wear. She was torn between a shortsleeve cream dress that reached til her knees with a thin belt that comes with the dress, or a bright orange skirt, knee length as well, with a cream chefon top.
She tried them both once again for the 30th time, looked at herself from every angle possible in the mirror, and finally decided on the cream dress she bought lately.
She put on some makeup. 5aled always told her he liked the way she looked naturally without lots of makeup but she always loved looking nice and beautiful, even to others.
After failed attempts to pull her hair up, she decided to wear it down and put a shiny hairband on, wore her tiny diamond stud earrings, and her new killer heels shoes which she bought specifically for that dress.
She looked at herself in the mirror admiring herself. A memory of the conversation she had with her mother the night of her milcha flashed back. She felt a rush of anxiety flow through her veins. 'a3ootho bila, i'm never going to do anything foolish like have sex..even if i love him..even if he's my husband...even if it's not 7aram...i'm not...i'm waiting for it to happen on our wedding night' she thought to herself as she applied a layer of her dark red lipstick, took her purse, and left the house.



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MOVIES <3

Did anyone of u saw this movie? Seven Pounds, starring Will Smith.

It's AMAZING.... it's sooo touching!

It's about a man who lost his wife in a car accident and whom now dedicated himself to donate organs (parts of his body) to those who really need it...

The ending is the best...i couldn't stop crying!

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For All The Women Out There ;*

Dedicated to love;** ( i knw u might not have anything to do with this, but this is 4u becuz i was so touched by ur lovely Random;** post which i loved ;p hope u dnt mind babe;* )

To all the girls out there who misinterpret love and what it means to be in a relationship..

((Baby, this is not 4u ok and has nothing to do with u.. i love u SO SO SO much)) ;p

xxx;*
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Could not have said it better ...

HEAR WHAT OPRAH WINFREY HAD TO SAY ABOUT MEN:

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*If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

*If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

*Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.

*Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

*Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

*Slower is better.

*Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

*If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".

* A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

*Don't settle.

*If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

*Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
(You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.)

*The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

*Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
(He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?)

*Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

*Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

*If something bothers you, speak up.

*Never let a man know everything.
(He will use it against you later.)

*You cannot change a man's behaviour.
(Change comes from within.)

*Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job.

*Do not make him into a quasi-god.
(He is a man, nothing more nothing less.)

*Never let a man define who you are.

*Never borrow someone else's man.
(If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.)

*A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

*All men are NOT dogs.

*You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.

*You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship

*You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

*Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always knows where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

*Never move into his mother's house.

*Never co-sign for a man.

*Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

*Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

-Share this with other women and men (just so they know)... -

>>You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices,

and another woman prepare.<<


"They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them." <--- so true!!


Advice from Angel:
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->Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful...

DrPhill: "You should know that you're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one. They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices. Make the right one."


*Ladies take care of your own hearts....
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My Diary (21)

Sorry for taking so long u guys:( i know maly 7alaa chithee bass shasawi :(

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Previously on My Diary (20):
5aled prepared Maya a romantic getaway at the beach, something private just for the two of them. He set a table with her favorite meal, candles that lit in a pathway that led to the table.
Maya was having the time of her life with the man she loved, and vice versa.

Little did she know that nothing lasts for ever.


Maya went home that night seeing the world in different colors. Her heart was filled with joy and happiness...until that day. The day she wished was a dream, a bad dream.

The days went buy, still nothing official between them, they were still getting to know each other. And every day that passed buy was a day of reassurance to each of them that they want to spend the rest of their lives together, they want to have babies together, they wanted to grow old together.
Maya trusted 5aled completely, she felt safe with him.
That night on the phone, Maya noticed 5aled trying to talk dirty with her, but she was too shy to hear any of it or talk back to him, so she changed the subject and said goodnight.
The next night was the same, and the third, and the fourth..
Maya didn't know what was going on with 5aled..'all guys think about sex' she thought to herself.. 'he's just being a man'... this was something new to her.. she never experienced something like that before.. she was a pure virgin... the only nasty thing she did was watch hot love scenes in movies......
later on, she noticed SHE had feelings as well....
she started being in lust with him, as he was with her...except he was a hundred times more than her....

5aled's intentions wer pure towards Maya, he wanted to marry her for who she was, he couldn't wait til the day they get married, and she loved him so much she didn't wanna waste anymore time...

"aby a56ibich jereeb Maya" 5aled talked through the phone, late that night as he was in bed, about to sleep..
"ana b3ad i want that" Maya felt her heart jump out of its chamber. She was in her monkey pj's which she loved and wore most often, lying in bed, with the tv on, ready to sleep.
"inzain 3yal 5ala9 e7na 3erafna ba3a'9 7g muda 6weela..i mean the time we knew eachother is enough for me...i'm really sure abeej inty..oo bass inty... wela a7ad '3airech...ana mit2akid"
"ana b3ad mit2akda 7abeeby...ur the only one i wanna spend my life with...u make me so happy..i don't wanna wait any longer either...i'm ready when u're ready"
well, i am ready baby... i wanna marry you... i have some money saved up already...it's enough to open a house and be responsible of you..."
"that's good baby..this makes it much easier"
"yes it does, it makes a long road short......"
"ya..." Maya felt his heartbeat on the phone, she knew he was going to say it
"so ba5aly ahaly ekalmoon ahalich bajer ok? 3shan e5i6boonach ly..." the way he said it just made her feel butterflies in her stomach.... the thought of being his just overwhelmed her... she didn't want anything more...
"9ij 7abeeby?"
"ee 9ij baby.. i will... 5ala9 it's time... don't u think?"
"heheh yeah i think so too... 5ala9 ana tomorrow morning i'll let my mom know"
"know shinow.......?" 5aled enjoyed making Maya blush and she knew it
"ina ur parents will call my parents" Maya knew where this was going....it was like a game to him....and Maya liked it..
"why will they call them" 5aled wanted to hear it out of her mouth, her voice...
"3shan ye56eboony lek" Maya said all shy and flushy
"3shan et9eereen zojty? 5aled continued
"ee... 3shan a9eer zojtik" Maya's cheecks became apples..
"7ilwa minij"
"minik a7la..." they continued flirting
"inty a7la" 5aled said, the rush of lusty feelings flowing inside him
"inta a7la"
"inty amoot feej"
"inta 3mry"
"inty sexy"
"inta sexier"
"inty so sexy u make me wanna...." and there 5aled stopped... he wanted so badly to tell her what he wanted to do with her, to do TO her... he wanted to say more.. but he faught with himself to stop...he knew if he didn't... she would...
"ahhhhh" 5aled sighed..." i better go sleep now... and dream about what i wanna do to u" he smiled
"hahah.. dream all u want becuz one day it will all be true"
"ya.. goodnight 7abeebty"
"goodnight 3mry"

5aled went to dream thinking about Maya in his bed.....and Maya went to sleep feeling sexy about herself...


2 weeks later
5aled and Maya officially engaged..

1 month later
5aled and Maya's milcha...
they wanted to be malcheen becuz Maya's family didn't allow her go and come with him if they were just engaged..
Maya was putting on her red maxi dress while her mom came in the room..
"ta3aly yuma basaa3dich" offered her mother
"thank u mama"
"sim3y binty... inty min il laila.. ohwa 7alal 3laich..winty 7alal 3laih.." began her mother
"ee a3arf mama" Maya was wondering why her mother was telling her this...
"mo kilshay yabee e7a9la il rayaal" her mother continued..there are stuff that should wait til marriage...ok yuma?"
"ok mama.. walla a3arf" Maya felt so awkward hearing this from her mother...but still..she was her mother...

She took one last look of herself...and walked down the stairs to 5aled...her now "husband"...
As she was walking towards him, smiling at all the family members there.. she wondered what did her mother mean buy giving her that piece of advice... 'what am i gonna do ya3ny? have sex with him?'...........


TO BE CONTINUED....

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**Cupid:* miss u 2 babe;*