How can I begin to describe what I feel within me?
How can I start?
The feeling I feel right now is hunger, hunger for the man I love..hunger for him to be next to me..
Oh how I long for this to happen..how I'm yearning and burning inside to have him by my side..
He is the man I love..
The man of my dreams..
The one I long for
The one who comforts me
The one who can dry my tears by a single word, miles apart on the phone
The one who can lift my soul up high
The one who cheers me up when I'm down
The one who makes me smile when everything feels wrong
The ONLY one who captured my heart
And he is the man I love
Long story short: he loves me, I love him, we want to get married, but in order for that to happen,
A few things must happen at first, and that's why we have to wait...
And waiting sucks! Yes! It sucks!
U know why?? Cuz ALL I think about is him, all I think about is when when when?
Ti3abt! Malaait! 5alaaa9 I want him ib ma3na il kalima, more so I need him.. I need him by my side at night, I need him with me 24\7, is that too much to ask?
Ya3ny I'm willing to do ANYTHING for that to happen..ANYTHING
Yes, that's how much I love him...he's everything I wish for, he's my past,present, and future...
He's my everything, literally my everything..
So tell me..
How can I go through this? How can I wait another year or so when I love him this much?
What shall I do? Stop my heart from beating his name? Stop myself from breathing his air?
Tell me...
How can I put this yearning and longing on hold and live the present, the reality, where he lives in a house, far away from ours, where we are not literally together (side by side), where we can't go out on a date together, where the only thing we can do is talk on the phone?
Please tell me how and save my soul from drowning...
I love him sooo much with all my heart, body, and soul ily ga3da ayin oo aktib 3anna fe blogs!
Amooooot feeh akthar min ildinyah oo ma feeha...and the best part is, we exchange the same feeling..
I guess I have to look at the bright part, ena atleast we get to talk to each other on the fone and hear each other's voices day and night..
But still, that burning feeling I get in the middle of my body, way deep into my heart, touching my soul is hard to erase
And I can't
And I won't
U know why?...becuz being in love and extremely in love means u get to feel everything to the ultimate extent of it..
And that's why, yearning, longing, burning, desperation, craziness, happiness, comfort, ecstacy, thrill, adrenalin rush, dizziness, shyness, sadness all are a recipe for love
Becuz love has its ups and downs, weaknesses and strongness, and it doesn't be called love when there are no stormy weathers to survive, becuz real love is supported on strong bases, and a base gets stronger by witnessing and living through different kind of moments that strengthen the love that is shared by two people..
And this is how u know ur love is true, when u survive the stormy weathers together
That's when u know u were really meant to be
Becuz when its true and strong and most of all, real it can go through anything no matter how hard it is..
Sometimes I just wish things were simpler for us, and that we didn't have to go through all this waiting to get married like normal people
I wish I can close my eyes and open them to the sight of us sitting on the sofa "kosha" at our wedding night ...
Wouldn't it be fun if we all could forward the hard parts of our lives and pause it whenever we want?
Ilmohem 6ala3t ily fe galby al7eeen oo wayed erte7t..
Its good I have u guys, cuz sometimes magdar I tell him these stuff cuz b3dain he'll think ana 7anna:p although 7araam maskeen
He doesn't bass still.. I know ana paranoid bass lail7eeeen
But if only we could move our life the way we want to just like a puppet show, wouldn't we all never have to go through the
Hard parts whether we're together or alone..
But we wouldn't be who we are today.. Its the moments in our lives that make us who we are and I honestly believe that.. Becuz walla lo not every SINGLE thing that happend in my life (the day we started our journey) to this day..ma bakoun 3arfa ma3na il7ob
Cuz seriously I never knew I could love a person this much ila lama I loved Him..
"OH HOW I LONG FOR THIS TO HAPPEN..."
Alla e7af'9ik ly ya rab we 5aleeek ly
Ameeeen inshalla;** oo raby la ya7remny minik ya a'3la ma fil koun
Yaly myaniny oo m6ayer ly 3agly :p
I love u 7ayaaaaty ;)
XXX;*
