Tuesday, November 17, 2009

THIS IS THE STORY OF MY LIFE

What can i say... is it a dream? or is it somethin REAL?

Did it really happen? Did it after 3 years of waiting? Did it for real?!

i can't believe it... BUT it was worth the wait ;) we waited, and waited, and waited... and now... it's our turn.. our time to shine :D

Here's my story (mu5ta9ar)

3 years ago...

i came back from school, changed into my pj's, ate lunch, and came up to my computer.. i signed in online as i surfed the net.. the small messenger sign in box appeared at the right corner, "HIM" signed in.. my heart skipped ten beats

HIM: hiiiiiiiiiiii

ME: hiii:)

HIM: hw ru?

ME: b5air u?

HIM: b5air daamich ib5aair ;)

*blushing* we continued chatting for another hour...

1 year later...we're in a relationship, and then one day..

"HIM" signed in

HIM: hiii baby

ME: hiiii :$ *blushing*

HIM: u knw i want to marry u right

ME: hehe um 9ij

HIM: ee 9ij, i'm going to marry u one day and u're going to be MY wife

ME: heheh umm i don't know what to say...

HIM: do u agree? yal gomar inty..

ME: yes i do :p

HIM: then as from now on u're my wife

2 years later we got engaged :) this is how it went...

"MY BABY CALLING"

ME: alooooooooooooo

HIM: halla ba3ad 3ommmry b3d gallllby b3d ahaaaly kilehom

ME: hehehe halla ib 7abeeb galby

HIM: shlonach 7abeebty?

ME: ib5aair, how's work?

HIM: umm ok.. just waiting for something

ME: what?

HIM: u'll see

ME: plzzzzzzz plzz plzz gooly

HIM: mafee amal hahahaah aya 3laich

ME: yalla 3aaaad 7abeeby plzzz gooooooool *heart racing*

HIM: sorry babe i have to go... ba7acheech b3dain byee i love u

ME: i love u too... bye *frowning*

2 hours later...

as i was having my lunch....

Mother: alooo ahlain.... halla walla... ee... ee...e... walla tefaaja2t oo 9aar il 9ij... hahaha ya7laailaa.. ummm bachoof ubooha oo ba36eech il5abar bacher... zain ok... hahaha.. e7na ily netsharaf...ha?.....milcha?....haahah ... eee bakalem ubooha warid 3alaich ok?... ok 3ayal... ma3 ilsalaama

i literally dropped my spoon and opend my eyes widely looking at my mother with my heart pounding...

ME: who? what??

Mother: u got engaged

i started screaming and jumping up and down min il far7aa :p ma 3eraft shasawy, and HIM on the other hand asked my little brother to capture this "moment" on video!!!!!
hahahah BOYS ....




*i might write my WHOLE story one day, like min il bedaaya bass ma3arf ;s u guys tell me if u wanna find out more or not :p LOVE U ALL :*

Friday, October 2, 2009

Why I Love You ;P

>>This one is for YOU ;)


- I love how when u're in a bad mood and grumpy and mitnarfiz, i could change ur mood

- I love the way u make me feel, just by being my significant other

- I love the way u laugh when ur watching a movie, u smile a BIG smile and ur nose crinkle

- I love when etdale3ny

- I love ur hair

- I love the way u love me

- I love just watching u by webcam and just watch u watching a movie

- I love when we joke with each other

- I love how et5aaf 3lay oo et'3aaar

- I love ur looks

- I love ur voice, it's soo hot it makes me melt, especially when u get up in the morning, it's just SO smooth and rough and SEXY !

- I love when u surprise me

- I love how u can make me stop crying just by being with me on the phone :(

- I love how u handle me when i'm pms-ing

- I love how u can't BARE it when i cry

- I love how tough and manly u are ;)

-I love that u're TALL :p (thank god hahah)

- I love that when we fight u can't sleep at night until we say "i love u" and make up

- I love how original u are

- I love ur nose and ur saksoooka and eyebrows and eyes and lips and HANDS :p i just wanna hold them :(

- I love how u miss me

- I love all what u do for me and what u're willing to sacrifice for me <3

- I love when u do the British Accent :p

- I love laughing with u, even though it's just over the phone :((((



* This list could go on forever! i can't wait to get married to u :D cuz i know i'm gona be happy and u're never goin to make me cry ;*
i love u soooooooooooo much ;$


XXX;*

Sunday, September 6, 2009

For you

well this is my 1st time doing this and i realy dnt knw what to say im just gna speak my mind and i hope u like it darling:p
im reading this book about body language its realy interesting i like to knw how ppl think SHE alwayz tries to knw how i think bout i dnt think she'll evr knw even when we get married.....
im having sm money prblemz these past few dayz i try to save but i cant thank god i got a bonus or i realy dnt think i could've .
i was having some big big problems with my little brother but after i fought with him 4 a month he came kissed me on the head nw we"r beter than ever we alwayz play ps3.
ooo shit im running out of wordz i knw ur smilling write nw u ..........................
that was my futer wife to be she alwayz likes these lovey duvy STufff im thinking about marrying her 10/10/2010 nice numberz haa i knw i like it too
ok gtg hun got a case
love u
ps this girl realy knwz hw to coook

Saturday, July 18, 2009

In Memory of Michael Jackson

"Let us dream of tomorrow where we can truly love from the soul, and know love as the ultimate truth at the heart of all creation. " -Micheal Jackson









The King of Pop



1958 - 2009















walla maskeen michael ;( he was such an amazing dancer and singer!





i'm still sad about him passing away :(((




during his last rehersal




i don't know what to say just that he was truly an icon























*MJ's official website:




HIS AMAZING DANCE MOVES:


















R.I.P. MJ




u will never be forgotten :*





"his music will forever live..."
-anonymous




XXX;*

Friday, July 17, 2009

My Diary (26)

Maya's got so scared of that girl for some reason that she started shaking....
5aled took maya's hand and lead her away from Tahani...
"you bitch" Tahani mumbled as she passed by them....Maya heard her but acted as if she didn't hear anything but 5aled couldn't hold his anger... no one trashes his wife to be no one! so he turned to Tahani with a disgusted look on his face and said "sim3eeny inty! ta7amily etyeebeen 6aary murty 3la lsaanich faahma.. 9ibart 3laich wayed... e7tarmy nafsich 3shan il waa7id ye7tarmich inty KINTY 5a6eebty oo al7een 5alaa9 get over it!!" 5aled blurted as he put his arm around Maya's shoulder
"this is NOT it" Tahani yelled back as she went inside Mirai ...
'what was wrong with her that girl! it's over ! she's not the first one to end her engagement!' maya thought silently feeling a bit proud that 5aled fought for her.. it felt good somehow... but that girl didn't have the right to come and yell at them in public accusing maya herself for ending their engagement.... it was soo over! why can't she get that!
uuuuugggghhh this was starting to get frustrating...
"are u ok babe?" asked 5aled worried about maya
"yes baby i'm ok ... it's fine" maya replied back
maya rode her car and 5aled rode his
just as maya reversed her car to get out of the car park her phone rang..
"helo" she said without looking at the screen
"7abeeebty" 5aled's smooth voice made her tingle
"hahaha 5alood tawna 6al3een min il ma63am m3a ba3a'9!" maya smiled
"adry...bas i miss u "
"hahah i miss u 2"
"5alni6la3 for dinner tonight b3ad" 5aled suggesting
"may9eeeer 5alooody 3aad...tawna mit'3adyeeen... how about tomorrow night??"
5aled begged and begged so in the end they decided to go out for dinner...


After dinner was over, they drove around in 5aled's car at night... they had a nice time together..."i'll take u to some place" 5aled said..
"where baby? it' late.."
"it won't be a surprise if i tell u right" 5aled winked

they reached their destination .... he took her to his place for the first time... they got down maya feeling a bit nervous....and went inside the house
his house was very small in amwaj islands in bahrain, a lovely place with the beach and all....he lived in that house alone, it was a one floor house that faced the sea...it had a lovely view in the morning if u looked out the window...

she sat at the daily living room while he got her cold water to drink and a glass of pepsi for him...
"la7'9a aby araweej shay" 5aled said as he opend a small cupboard under the tv and pulled out an album..."ta3aaly choofy" he smiled
he sat close to her on the sofa and opend the album....
"hahahahahha" Maya laughed so hard at a picture she saw of him when he was a baby.."cuuuuuuuute"
"lati6anizain tara ma baraweeeeej" 5aled teased trying to close the album while maya tried to keep it open
"ok ok bass walla mabaaa'97ak!" maya held her laugh in
5aled looked at her... he gave her an 'are u sure' look and she nodded with a big smile on her face
5aled leaned in and kissed her soft rosey cheeck that turned cherry red after he kissed it...
he showed maya pics of him when he was a baby, a little boy, and a teenager and they both started laughing at some of his pics....
5aled couldn't figure out how he got so lucky... he leaned in softly, looked deep into her eyes and kissed her softly on her lips
maya didn't know what to do... she didn't know how to kiss... she just kept her lips open slightly and let him do all the work....he kissed and kissed and kissed her until he began gasping for air..and she the same...
he leaned away and looked at her, his eyes serious, his face with an expression she never saw before.......he wanted her... he wanted a taste of her.. he wanted to have her... after all, ohma malcheen so why not right? she counts as his wife now.. so why not......?
maya got a bit scared... she never imagined doing anything b4 her wedding night....
'so this is it?' maya thought to her self as he leaned in again to kiss her harder this time
'could tonight be the night .....??'
'he is my husband after all..... 'maya thought to herself...and now she began kissing him back....she liked what she was tasting and doing and she wanted more.. she wanted to experience more... so she let 5aled take a step further....he started opening her buttons and she started breathing harder becuz she was nervous and that only excited him more....

'could this be it?' Maya thought silently to herself wondering if it was a wise thing to do



love u all :)
xxx;*

Thursday, July 16, 2009

My Heart Keeps On Smiling :**


This is a poem i wrote the other day out of boredom ;p

check it out


xxx;*


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My heart keeps on smiling
when i hear your voice
it keeps on dancng
when i see ur face

my heart keeps on smiling
when i touch your hand
it keeps on dancing
when ur lips touch mine

ooh i can't describe the feelin
the feelin that i get when
my heart keeps on smiling
ooh ooh ooh ooh

the joy that i feel
could it be so real
the happiness that lingers
from my head to my fingers

i never imagined my heart could
keep on smiling for good

it's the extacy that u give me
like a drug inside of me

i never imagined my heart could
keep on smiling for good

my heart keeps on smiling
when i hear ur voice
it keeps n dancing
when i see ur face

my heart keeps on smiling
oooh ooh ooh ooh
my heart keeps on smiling
ooh ooh ooh ooh

<3

My Diary (25)

The next day maya woke up with big round puffy eyes from all the crying the night before...
she flipped over and looked at her phone

1 messege received
maya 7abeebty, plz listen to me, yes i was married b4 a long time ago, but i swear he's not my son...he just thinks i'm his dad becuz his dad passed away so i married his mother out of pitty, which was the biggest mistake ever, but please maya u have to understand, plz call me back we have to meet.
i love u xx

Maya took a deep breath...'that was a long message...too much to process... i think i have to meet him' she thought to herself twisting and twirling in her comfy bed not feeling at all a bit comforted by the thoughs rushing in her mind...

she sent a messege to 5aled telling him when and where and she'd be there, he replied in less than a second, telling her to meet him at Mirai for lunch at 2 pm and they would discuss it there..

It was 12 pm when they sent each other the messege.. so they had 2 hours to get ready and be there....
this was the first morning Maya gets up without any missed calls or a nice flirty messege from 5aled, and the first morning 5aled doesn't get a call back from Maya as soon as she opens her eyes in the morning...

it felt wierd for both of them....
but like every relationship they're having their ups and downs Maya thought as she got out of bed, she had breakfast, milk tea and cereal in a bowl without milk and sat in her room watching tv...she didn't feel like sitting with her family cuz she didn't want them asking her what's wrong and she didn't want to answer any of their questions so shedecided to hide in her room...

Maya tried enjoying what was on tv but all she could think about was 5aled's situation...and how long it took him to hide something like this...and what if he had more dark secrets? what if he was a lier.. don't they say once a cheater always a cheater? doesn't this apply to his situation??
maya kept thinking and thinking her mind all over the place....

5aled at home sat with his family...although he was unusually quiet but no one noticed... his mind kept wandering about maya...flashbacks of the way she was crying the night before tore him apart...he couldn't stand seeing his love cry like that...all he wanted to do was put his arms around her and stroke her hair and calm her down...
thinking about holding her at that second made him wish they decided to meet earlier...
he was truly sorry about not telling her about his past before..all she knew was that he was engaged to Tahani before her...even Tahani didn't know about 5aled's previous marriage...

Maya thought, bahrain is so small she would've heard if something like that happend...or maybe they didn't do an actual wedding party? maybe maybe maybe kept maya thikning and wondering...
she looked at the clock next to her and jumped..when did it become 1:00pm! now she had only and hour left and she had to shower, change and everything.... so she showered quickly, washed her hair, got out of the bathroom in her robe towel... opend her cupbaord and decided on wearing a white knee length cotton day dress, her new silver flats that she got on sale from Dior, applied some light make up on although she didn't feel like dressing up at all but she had to look good in a public place...
at 2 sharp she was ready and left the house..

5aled was waiting for Maya on fire, he was there before 2.... he called maya asking her where she was she said she was a few minutes away...

Maya reached, and went in feeling nervous and scared... she went in, saw 5aled... her heart couldn't help beating faster whenever she saw him... and 5aled felt the same... he couldn't help smiling whenever he saw her

they sat, facing each other.... they were both quiet at first, ordered their drinks and then 5aled broke the ice..
"Maya... bagoolaj qe9ity min awal..." he began nervously
maya didn't say anything but it was clear she was dying to know
"5 years ago my best friend died suffering from cancer.. he had a wife and a baby boy..his son was less than a year old..before he died he made me promise that i would take care of his wife and son as if they were my own family.... his wife was devastated...and so was i... so we bacame close...close friends..then more than friends... " he said all in one breath
Maya listened carefully as she sipped her drink nervously
"i guess we became close becuz of the loss of the person we both loved dearly... i felt sorry for her more than i thought i liked her... and her son... he was so little... and called me daddy and that made me reach out to them more.. i was the only man in her son's life and whenever i saw him i saw his dad's eyes in front of me and remember the promise i made before he died... i wanted to take care of them ... and how could i spend so much time with them when i wasn't 7alaal 3la his wife..or shall i say.. my ex wife.. so melachna 3ashan en9eer 7alaal 3la ba3a'9 and so we did.. and so she began walking in front of me without her 7jaab, whenever she felt down she cuddled with me ... and so one thing led to another and we began.. u know...." 5aled continued
Maya felt she was gonna explode with jealousy... and so she kept sipping on her drink biting the straw hardly while listening to 5aled...
"but soon after that it was soo hard, things got complicated... whenever anything happend she accused me of her husband's death..and so on... so things got a bit out of control...
i guess it was her way of expressing her loss or grief... but it was something i couldn't handle soo i decided to drop out of it... and she agreed it was best to do so becuz whenever she saw me she remembered him alla yer7uma and never got over it... and so we got a divorce a year later...
i think she got married now anyway.. to her cousin or something.. i'm not sure.. but the last time i saw her was in court signing our divorce papers...
i never told u this becuz it was soo hard for me to tell u... and i couldn't do it over the phone.. i wanted to tell u face to face but there was never a right time.. everytime i see u i just wanna hold u and kiss u..." 5aled smiled a soft smile to her and she melted remembering the way she felt in his arms... "fa gooleely... mita agoolaj..."
Maya smiled back to him, a smile with so much meaning... a smile of relief...
she couldn't help but be proud of him for what he did.. taking care of his best friend's family.. that was heroic... but still she was jealous over the moon about him having slept with his ex wife.. althoug her heart did go out to her... she still felt jealous and 5aled knew that.. and he loved that about maya... it made him feel special and dearly loved...

Maya ate her food relaxed now and relieved about what 5aled told her... and the way he looked while saying all that confirmed to her that he had nothing else to hide.... he was a clean slate now...
soo little by little Maya lightened up and begane enjoying her time with 5aled...
5aled saw how maya forgave him.. he couldn't help but feel really lucky for falling in love with an angel ... to him she was his angel.. his gurdian angel...
he held out his hand and reached for hers and held her hand tightly on the table
he motioned with his lips " i love u" and she blushed and said " i love u too " ...

Maya and 5aled enjoyed the rest of their meal relieved for passing this stormy weather...

just as they were leaving maya spotted a familar face...
her heart stopped... her jaw dropped...
5aled turned to see who was Maya looking at....

Tahani....




xxx;*
hope u guys liked it...and sorry it took me so long :***

My Diary (24)

First of all i would like to apologize for taking soo long to keep posting, but I'M BACK NOW :D xxx;**

ur comments is what keeps me going :*

This is to all my lovely readers who encourage me to do more :)

Nawarrii this is 4u ;)

i love u all xxx;**



*New idea: i'm thinking of writing MY true life story...anyone agree? :D
read my previous post (Question) for more details! :**










PREVIOUSLY ON MY LOVE DIARY
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After buying 2 oreo McFlurry's, they headed to her house, eating their flurry's.On their way, as they stopped in the traffic, Maya saw a young woman in her mid 20's with a young boy, probably around 2 years old staring over at 5aled"baby those people are looking at you..do they know u?" Maya asked thinking they might be related or something, sooner did she know they were more than related...they were his family...i mean HIS family.5aled turned over to look at them, he felt the world go round in slow motion, he fealt each heart beat, he felt...numb."BABA....BABA....." shouted the little boy beating on the glass window of the car, as Maya froze, not believing what she just heard.


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Maya froze, she didn't know what to do... what was someone in her place supposed to do anyway?? finding out for the first time that the guy she loved and trusted had a SON?? was married b4?! it was too much to digest...

5aled on the other hand went blank....he became speechless, he didn't know how to explain this to Maya, his wife to be....
what on earth could he say or do that could make this any better? or any easier....

They stayed quiet the whole way until they reached Maya's home...
"when were u planning on telling me about this" Maya asked furious holding her anger in, although she did a bad job at it
"i swear i was gonna tell u but there was never a right time" 5aled tried explaining
"never a right time??? never a right time to tell ur wife u had a SON?? u were married b4???? was there never a right time for this??" Maya exploded
"maya please sim3eeeny" 5aled began
"asma3 shino??" Maya began crying "after all this time 5aled! after all this time u kept this a SECRET from me??? how could u .. " maya kept sobbing

5aled was chocked...he couldn't speak...he didn't know what he could say or do to make Maya feel better... his heart went out to her....
he couldn't bare watching her cry...it only broke his heart into small pieces....

Maya went out of the car hoping that 5aled would stop her and explain to her what really happend, how and everything, but he just let her go and this only made her cry even harder..
5aled just drove back home quietly, just thinking about what just happend....
and maya went straight up to her room and cried herself to sleep...




xxx;*

Monday, July 13, 2009

QUESTION :*

Hello my lovely bloggers :*

i've missed u terribly!!...i'm so sorry for not posting anything all this time it's cuz first i was REALLY busy, and now i'm on holiday soo i'm taking my time off ;s

but i have a question for u guys... since i got a comment about my last post True Love, that someone thought it was a story ;p i'm guessing shall i really write my own story??
Did u guys like the post? and do u guys want me to wrtie MY actual story??

P.s. True Love was a post about the man i love ;$

love u all :**


xxx;*

Friday, June 5, 2009

True Love :* :*

How can I begin to say this?
How can I begin to describe what I feel within me?
How can I start?


The feeling I feel right now is hunger, hunger for the man I love..hunger for him to be next to me..
Oh how I long for this to happen..how I'm yearning and burning inside to have him by my side..

He is the man I love..
The man of my dreams..
The one I long for
The one who comforts me
The one who can dry my tears by a single word, miles apart on the phone
The one who can lift my soul up high
The one who cheers me up when I'm down
The one who makes me smile when everything feels wrong
The ONLY one who captured my heart
And he is the man I love

Long story short: he loves me, I love him, we want to get married, but in order for that to happen,
A few things must happen at first, and that's why we have to wait...
And waiting sucks! Yes! It sucks!
U know why?? Cuz ALL I think about is him, all I think about is when when when?
Ti3abt! Malaait! 5alaaa9 I want him ib ma3na il kalima, more so I need him.. I need him by my side at night, I need him with me 24\7, is that too much to ask?
Ya3ny I'm willing to do ANYTHING for that to happen..ANYTHING
Yes, that's how much I love him...he's everything I wish for, he's my past,present, and future...
He's my everything, literally my everything..

So tell me..
How can I go through this? How can I wait another year or so when I love him this much?
What shall I do? Stop my heart from beating his name? Stop myself from breathing his air?
Tell me...

How can I put this yearning and longing on hold and live the present, the reality, where he lives in a house, far away from ours, where we are not literally together (side by side), where we can't go out on a date together, where the only thing we can do is talk on the phone?
Please tell me how and save my soul from drowning...

I love him sooo much with all my heart, body, and soul ily ga3da ayin oo aktib 3anna fe blogs!
Amooooot feeh akthar min ildinyah oo ma feeha...and the best part is, we exchange the same feeling..

I guess I have to look at the bright part, ena atleast we get to talk to each other on the fone and hear each other's voices day and night..
But still, that burning feeling I get in the middle of my body, way deep into my heart, touching my soul is hard to erase
And I can't
And I won't
U know why?...becuz being in love and extremely in love means u get to feel everything to the ultimate extent of it..
And that's why, yearning, longing, burning, desperation, craziness, happiness, comfort, ecstacy, thrill, adrenalin rush, dizziness, shyness, sadness all are a recipe for love
Becuz love has its ups and downs, weaknesses and strongness, and it doesn't be called love when there are no stormy weathers to survive, becuz real love is supported on strong bases, and a base gets stronger by witnessing and living through different kind of moments that strengthen the love that is shared by two people..
And this is how u know ur love is true, when u survive the stormy weathers together
That's when u know u were really meant to be
Becuz when its true and strong and most of all, real it can go through anything no matter how hard it is..

Sometimes I just wish things were simpler for us, and that we didn't have to go through all this waiting to get married like normal people
I wish I can close my eyes and open them to the sight of us sitting on the sofa "kosha" at our wedding night ...
Wouldn't it be fun if we all could forward the hard parts of our lives and pause it whenever we want?

Ilmohem 6ala3t ily fe galby al7eeen oo wayed erte7t..
Its good I have u guys, cuz sometimes magdar I tell him these stuff cuz b3dain he'll think ana 7anna:p although 7araam maskeen
He doesn't bass still.. I know ana paranoid bass lail7eeeen
But if only we could move our life the way we want to just like a puppet show, wouldn't we all never have to go through the
Hard parts whether we're together or alone..
But we wouldn't be who we are today.. Its the moments in our lives that make us who we are and I honestly believe that.. Becuz walla lo not every SINGLE thing that happend in my life (the day we started our journey) to this day..ma bakoun 3arfa ma3na il7ob
Cuz seriously I never knew I could love a person this much ila lama I loved Him..






















"OH HOW I LONG FOR THIS TO HAPPEN..."







Alla e7af'9ik ly ya rab we 5aleeek ly
Ameeeen inshalla;** oo raby la ya7remny minik ya a'3la ma fil koun
Yaly myaniny oo m6ayer ly 3agly :p
I love u 7ayaaaaty ;)

XXX;*



Wednesday, May 6, 2009

"Quotes"



"Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live."



"Between the optimist and the pessimist, the difference is droll. The optimist sees the doughnut; the pessimist the hole!"



“Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see Life with a clearer view again.”




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I was surfing the internet, and i found these quotes that touched me, so i thought i'd like to share them all with u my luveez:*


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XXX;*

My Diary (23)

Maya reached the restaurant, parked her car, and entered. As she was just about to ask for the reservation name, she saw him sitting in a cosy square table for two on the right. She saw the man she was going to spend the rest of her life with, the man she loved, and whom most importantly loved her back.
5aled stood up, pulled out the chair for her, and sat facing her. He was in awe, he was just mesmorized by the way she looked. To him, she was like the moon between all the small stars in the sky. He was blindsided, he didn't see anything or anyone but her, and she knew that. She loved the fact that he only had eyes for her; it made her feel special.
They ordered their food and drinks.
As soon as the waiter left, 5aled took Maya's hand and kissed the top of it.
He saw her face turn red, as she pulled her hand away and looked down.
Maya becoming shy only made 5aled feel lustier, although his intentions were pure.
"sh7ilweha murty" 5aled smiled as he looked deeply into her eyelinered eyes
"hehehe" Maya blushed, "3yoon rayly il 7ilwa" she smiled
"amooot feej ya b3d galby inty"
"ana amoot feek akthar"

2 hours later, they left the restaurant.
"ma 7alaina" Maya reminded 5aled
"inty my dessert" 5aled joked as he kissed the side of her forehead, breathing in her sweet scent.
"hahahaha" Maya laughed shyly, holding his hand
"inzain ana bagoolaj shino... shrayech we leave ur car here and u send the driver to come take it, and u my girl come ride with me in my car..."
"umm ok bass shloun? my car key is with me"
"3adee baby give it to me ba5alee m3a the waiter, let ur driver get it from him"
"ok" Maya handed him the key

2 minutes later he was back
he put his arms around her and walked together to his car
they drove around not knowing were to buy dessert from
"5a6rich fe icecream?" 5aled asked, willing to do anything she wanted just to make her happy
"ummm la 5a6ry fe ummmm" Maya was thinking, as he interrupted her
"et3arfeen ana 5a6ry fe shino?"
"shino"
"feej"
Maya felt a million butterflies fly all over her stomach
Maya bit her lower lip and look down, flustered as 5aled leaned in and brushed his lips against hers and whispered "i love u" and then kissed her deeply but gently for the first time.
Maya didn't know what to do, say, or how to react... he was her husband, so it was ok for them to do whatever they wanted, but still she didn't know what to say or how to even kiss him back, so she just went quiet and kept her lips still for him to do the work and take the lead.
5aled loved that Maya didn't know to move her lips, he felt powerful, he felt in control, and that made him want to teach her more.
"like this" he whispered as he moved his lips in between hers

They made out for a long time

"it's getting late" Maya said, breathing hard, pushing herself away from him
"bass abeeej" 5aled pulled her closer to him and hugged her so tight
"ana b3ad.. bass lazim arja3 my dad would get mad if i didn't" she said as she was hugging him tighter
she looked at him one last look, giving him the green light to kiss her one more time
and so he did.. he kissed her like it was the last kiss ever, like there was no next time, like it was his first hungry kiss ever, like he didn't wanna let go
"i love u" Maya whispered in his ear as she gave him a wet kiss on his ear which drived him nuts and made him want her more
"please latroo7een..timayy aeej" 5aled begged as he squeezed her body tighter
"magdar 5aloody..u know i want to stay with u bass magdar...i have to get going" she looked at him one more time, this time, she made the move and kissed his lips that were begging for her to suck on them...she pulled away.. licked her lips, tasting the remainder of his lips on hers and pulling back from him, laying her back straightly on the seat...
"please 5aloody take me home 7abeeby" Maya said in a cute voice that made his insides melt
he kissed her cheeck and said "ok bawadeej ilbait...3la shar6 i buy u icecream" he smiled
"hahah ok that's fair" she smiled looking at him

After buying 2 oreo McFlurry's, they headed to her house, eating their flurry's.
On their way, as they stopped in the traffic, Maya saw a young woman in her mid 20's with a young boy, probably around 2 years old staring over at 5aled
"baby those people are looking at you..do they know u?" Maya asked thinking they might be related or something, sooner did she know they were more than related...they were his family...i mean HIS family.


5aled turned over to look at them, he felt the world go round in slow motion, he fealt each heart beat, he felt...numb.
"BABA....BABA....." shouted the little boy beating on the glass window of the car, as Maya froze, not believing what she just heard.

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Sorry it's short..
xxx;*

Monday, May 4, 2009

My Diary (22)

Hello my friends! ;D
So sorry guyz for taking so long to continue my story due to some difficult circumstances..
But all is good now :)
I'm going to continue my lovely story which i missed writing SO much ;p
i'm going to finish it soon and then i'll be posting random posts like my previous posts ;p
SHRAYKUM? ;p good or bad idea?? ;p
i'll post random stuff, and u guys could write down ur oppinions and comments as i'd love to read them :)
And later on i might write another story ;)

*ok i have a question, do u guys WANT 'Tahani' to live or shall i KILL her? i dnt knw what to do with her anymore LOL ;p


P.S. if there's one thing i've learned in the last couple of weeks, it's that health is the most important thing in life, and no amount of money can buy health, it only comes from God.

xxx;*
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Previously on My Diary:


She took one last look of herself...and walked down the stairs to 5aled...her now "husband"...As she was walking towards him, smiling at all the family members there.. she wondered what did her mother mean buy giving her that piece of advice... 'what am i gonna do ya3ny? have sex with him?'...........

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5 months after 5aled and Maya's milcha:

Maya was looking at a wedding magazine, trying to choose a wedding dress for her wedding that was coming soon. She was planing on a small wedding party, with close family and friends whom she all knew and cared about. She didn't want one of those fancy parties in one of the biggest hotels, having half of Bahrain in her guest list, half of them coming happy for her and the rest jealous or coming to watch the wedding, what they did and what they didn't do, which singer they brought, which designer was her dress made by, and then leaving the wedding early morning critisizing what they didn't like. Maya wanted that day to be special, she wanted that day to last forever in her mind, she wanted it to be perfect.

The invitations were going out soon, and she was so frustrated she still didn't even buy a wedding dress! Each time she tried one, she liked the one she tried after. She was getting so confused, she wanted to wear something that said: MAYA. Where can she find one of these?


Maya's phone started ringing
"shit" she said fishing for her phone under the pile of magazines in front of her.
"aloo" she said
"hala 7abeebty, shlonach?" 5aled's deep sexy voice made her relax
"ana b5air baby, inta shlonak?" she asked as she layed her back against the sofa chair.
"ana tamaam 7abeebty, shbitsaween illaila?" 5aled teased, he knew they had plans for dinner that night, but he loved teasing Maya.
"DINNER" Maya said loudly, laughing at him
"hahahaha" 5aled laughed "ok ok i'm taking u to dinner, u don't have to beg" 5aled continued teasing her
"hahaha 5alooooody" Maya said in the most cutest voice 5aled has ever heard.
"3yoon 5aloody" 5aled said, feeling his heart beat faster
"a7ibik" Maya said smiling with butterflies in her stomach
"shinow?" 5aled said, as if he didn't hear her the first time
"a7ibik" Maya said it again, blushing this time
"shinow? shgilty?" 5aled asked, just wanting to hear that word in her sweet voice
"a7ibik 5alooody a7ibik"
"haa?" 5aled kept pretending he didn't hear her so she would repeat saying that word to him
"ohooo 5aled! bass tabeeny agoolak a7ibik mara thaanya! MOB GAYLATLAK" Maya said laughing with a big smile on her face acting mad, but her knew her better
"hahahahhaha"
"hahahahahahah" they laughed together on the phone

54 minutes later Maya finally closed the phone and went back to flipping her magazine. They always spent hours talking on the phone, they never got enough of each other.
After finishing going over a few bridewear magazines, Maya saw her watch, 'yikes! it's 6:30! i have to get ready for my date' Maya literally ran into the bathroom, took off all her clothes, ran the water, and steped into the shower, feeling the warm water fall down from her head to her toes, sponging herself with her new perfume bodyshower 5aled gave her as a present with a perfume bottle.


On the other hand, 5aled was so excited to see Maya, he felt a mixture of emotions, he felt happy, sexy, lusty. He just wanted her in his arms, he couldn't wait til he laid eyes on her..
He started getting ready, it seemed to him that time was on slow motion! he felt each minute pass by like 10. He wanted time to fly, he wanted to close his eyes and open them seeing Maya in front of him. But of course he couldn't do that, he like every other person in this world, had to wait. So that's what he did, he got ready and waited.
As he waited he looked at himself in the mirror and thought, 'Maya is gonna like this on me'.
He wore his new thob (dishdaasha;p), and red '3itra. He really did look sexy in that.
it was 7:30 p.m now and their dinner reservation wasn't until 8, so he decided to kill time by watching tv.

Maya was in her room, struggling to decide on what to wear. She was torn between a shortsleeve cream dress that reached til her knees with a thin belt that comes with the dress, or a bright orange skirt, knee length as well, with a cream chefon top.
She tried them both once again for the 30th time, looked at herself from every angle possible in the mirror, and finally decided on the cream dress she bought lately.
She put on some makeup. 5aled always told her he liked the way she looked naturally without lots of makeup but she always loved looking nice and beautiful, even to others.
After failed attempts to pull her hair up, she decided to wear it down and put a shiny hairband on, wore her tiny diamond stud earrings, and her new killer heels shoes which she bought specifically for that dress.
She looked at herself in the mirror admiring herself. A memory of the conversation she had with her mother the night of her milcha flashed back. She felt a rush of anxiety flow through her veins. 'a3ootho bila, i'm never going to do anything foolish like have sex..even if i love him..even if he's my husband...even if it's not 7aram...i'm not...i'm waiting for it to happen on our wedding night' she thought to herself as she applied a layer of her dark red lipstick, took her purse, and left the house.



xxx;*

Sunday, May 3, 2009

MOVIES <3


Did anyone of u saw this movie? Seven Pounds, starring Will Smith.

It's AMAZING.... it's sooo touching!

It's about a man who lost his wife in a car accident and whom now dedicated himself to donate organs (parts of his body) to those who really need it...

The ending is the best...i couldn't stop crying!

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xxx;*

For All The Women Out There ;*

Dedicated to love;** ( i knw u might not have anything to do with this, but this is 4u becuz i was so touched by ur lovely Random;** post which i loved ;p hope u dnt mind babe;* )

To all the girls out there who misinterpret love and what it means to be in a relationship..

((Baby, this is not 4u ok and has nothing to do with u.. i love u SO SO SO much)) ;p

xxx;*
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Could not have said it better ...


HEAR WHAT OPRAH WINFREY HAD TO SAY ABOUT MEN:
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*If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

*If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

*Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.

*Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

*Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

*Slower is better.

*Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

*If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".

* A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

*Don't settle.

*If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

*Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
(You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.)

*The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

*Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
(He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?)

*Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

*Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

*If something bothers you, speak up.

*Never let a man know everything.
(He will use it against you later.)

*You cannot change a man's behaviour.
(Change comes from within.)

*Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job.

*Do not make him into a quasi-god.
(He is a man, nothing more nothing less.)

*Never let a man define who you are.

*Never borrow someone else's man.
(If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.)

*A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

*All men are NOT dogs.

*You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.

*You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship

*You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

*Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always knows where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

*Never move into his mother's house.

*Never co-sign for a man.

*Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

*Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

-Share this with other women and men (just so they know)... -

>>You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices,

and another woman prepare.<<


"They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them." <--- so true!!


Advice from Angel:
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->Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful...

DrPhill: "You should know that you're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one. They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices. Make the right one."


*Ladies take care of your own hearts....
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Saturday, April 4, 2009

My Diary (21)

Sorry for taking so long u guys:( i know maly 7alaa chithee bass shasawi :(

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Previously on My Diary (20):
5aled prepared Maya a romantic getaway at the beach, something private just for the two of them. He set a table with her favorite meal, candles that lit in a pathway that led to the table.
Maya was having the time of her life with the man she loved, and vice versa.

Little did she know that nothing lasts for ever.


Maya went home that night seeing the world in different colors. Her heart was filled with joy and happiness...until that day. The day she wished was a dream, a bad dream.

The days went buy, still nothing official between them, they were still getting to know each other. And every day that passed buy was a day of reassurance to each of them that they want to spend the rest of their lives together, they want to have babies together, they wanted to grow old together.
Maya trusted 5aled completely, she felt safe with him.
That night on the phone, Maya noticed 5aled trying to talk dirty with her, but she was too shy to hear any of it or talk back to him, so she changed the subject and said goodnight.
The next night was the same, and the third, and the fourth..
Maya didn't know what was going on with 5aled..'all guys think about sex' she thought to herself.. 'he's just being a man'... this was something new to her.. she never experienced something like that before.. she was a pure virgin... the only nasty thing she did was watch hot love scenes in movies......
later on, she noticed SHE had feelings as well....
she started being in lust with him, as he was with her...except he was a hundred times more than her....

5aled's intentions wer pure towards Maya, he wanted to marry her for who she was, he couldn't wait til the day they get married, and she loved him so much she didn't wanna waste anymore time...

"aby a56ibich jereeb Maya" 5aled talked through the phone, late that night as he was in bed, about to sleep..
"ana b3ad i want that" Maya felt her heart jump out of its chamber. She was in her monkey pj's which she loved and wore most often, lying in bed, with the tv on, ready to sleep.
"inzain 3yal 5ala9 e7na 3erafna ba3a'9 7g muda 6weela..i mean the time we knew eachother is enough for me...i'm really sure abeej inty..oo bass inty... wela a7ad '3airech...ana mit2akid"
"ana b3ad mit2akda 7abeeby...ur the only one i wanna spend my life with...u make me so happy..i don't wanna wait any longer either...i'm ready when u're ready"
well, i am ready baby... i wanna marry you... i have some money saved up already...it's enough to open a house and be responsible of you..."
"that's good baby..this makes it much easier"
"yes it does, it makes a long road short......"
"ya..." Maya felt his heartbeat on the phone, she knew he was going to say it
"so ba5aly ahaly ekalmoon ahalich bajer ok? 3shan e5i6boonach ly..." the way he said it just made her feel butterflies in her stomach.... the thought of being his just overwhelmed her... she didn't want anything more...
"9ij 7abeeby?"
"ee 9ij baby.. i will... 5ala9 it's time... don't u think?"
"heheh yeah i think so too... 5ala9 ana tomorrow morning i'll let my mom know"
"know shinow.......?" 5aled enjoyed making Maya blush and she knew it
"ina ur parents will call my parents" Maya knew where this was going....it was like a game to him....and Maya liked it..
"why will they call them" 5aled wanted to hear it out of her mouth, her voice...
"3shan ye56eboony lek" Maya said all shy and flushy
"3shan et9eereen zojty? 5aled continued
"ee... 3shan a9eer zojtik" Maya's cheecks became apples..
"7ilwa minij"
"minik a7la..." they continued flirting
"inty a7la" 5aled said, the rush of lusty feelings flowing inside him
"inta a7la"
"inty amoot feej"
"inta 3mry"
"inty sexy"
"inta sexier"
"inty so sexy u make me wanna...." and there 5aled stopped... he wanted so badly to tell her what he wanted to do with her, to do TO her... he wanted to say more.. but he faught with himself to stop...he knew if he didn't... she would...
"ahhhhh" 5aled sighed..." i better go sleep now... and dream about what i wanna do to u" he smiled
"hahah.. dream all u want becuz one day it will all be true"
"ya.. goodnight 7abeebty"
"goodnight 3mry"

5aled went to dream thinking about Maya in his bed.....and Maya went to sleep feeling sexy about herself...


2 weeks later
5aled and Maya officially engaged..

1 month later
5aled and Maya's milcha...
they wanted to be malcheen becuz Maya's family didn't allow her go and come with him if they were just engaged..
Maya was putting on her red maxi dress while her mom came in the room..
"ta3aly yuma basaa3dich" offered her mother
"thank u mama"
"sim3y binty... inty min il laila.. ohwa 7alal 3laich..winty 7alal 3laih.." began her mother
"ee a3arf mama" Maya was wondering why her mother was telling her this...
"mo kilshay yabee e7a9la il rayaal" her mother continued..there are stuff that should wait til marriage...ok yuma?"
"ok mama.. walla a3arf" Maya felt so awkward hearing this from her mother...but still..she was her mother...

She took one last look of herself...and walked down the stairs to 5aled...her now "husband"...
As she was walking towards him, smiling at all the family members there.. she wondered what did her mother mean buy giving her that piece of advice... 'what am i gonna do ya3ny? have sex with him?'...........


TO BE CONTINUED....

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**Cupid:* miss u 2 babe;*

Monday, March 23, 2009

My Diary (20)

A week passed and Tahani still hauted Maya in her dreams.. she still had nightmares about her trying to break them up.....
Every 5 minutes Maya would look at her cartier ring with a smile on her face... and daydream about her future with 5aled...
Her parents were so happy for her, they're actually planning an engagement party for her...
5aled's parents were happy too, except they're always so busy traveling around the world for business, but that didn't bother 5aled anymore.

Maya woke up that morning with a feeling. A feeling where she didn't know what was coming.. but she felt it... she felt it was too good to be true, her having the man of her dreams and everything she wished for was too much to have...'inshalla forever' she told herself as she washed her face...
As she was having breakfast her phone rang...
"aloo?" Maya said with her mouth full
"aloo GALBY" 5aled's voice appeared
"hmmm" Maya hummed with a smile
"t3arfeen shino ilyoum??" 5aled asked happily
"shino?" Maya played along, although she knew exactly what today was.. and had the present prepared..
"MY BIRTHDAY, bass lazim et3arfeen shay.. ana mat5ara3 3la my birthday.. bas i'm happy cuz its a reason for us to go out and celebrate" 5aled said enthusaistically
"oh it is?" Maya continued playing along.. she liked teasing him
"YES IT IS" 5aled almost yelled knowing her games
"hahah ok ok ... what do u have in mind?"
"how about we celebrate, somewhere alone, somewhere we could be together, just the two of us" he suggested
"ok.. sounds cool.. where?" Maya was so excited about this
"how about.......................the beach"
"umm.. ok.. sounds good.. i like that"
"ok.. good then how about we have take away dinner and sit and talk on the beach, alone, we're going to have so much fun just together, with no one around us, no one to break in on us.." 5aled said reffering to Tahani..
"yaaa.. so we meet there at 7?"
"noo i'll come pick u up"
"5aled.. plz u know we can't..we're only engaged.." Maya said, knowing her family would't allow such a thing because they were kind of strict on these things..
"ok ok fine.. we'll meet there.. don't be late" 5aled was glowing.. he loved her so deeply that nothing could brake that.
"ok.. bye 7abeeby.. i love u" Maya said with a shy voice
"i love u .. byee"
And they hung up.

7 sharp Maya left the house, she felt better knowing he was already there..
She dressed up just for him, she wore her valentino red short dress that showed off her tanned legs, silver gina high heels.. diamond earings with a small emerald in the middle, her swarovski purse. Her hair was blow dried straight, she wore it down and put some make up on that glowed her skin and brought out her dark eyes... she looked stunning as she got into the car.. she felt complete.. she felt perfect.. she didn't want anything more.. 'this is the ultimate of being happy' she thought.. as she placed the gift on the front seat beside her. She got him a black gucci wallet, and wrote him a card.

5aled on the other hand, left the house earlier than Maya did and at 7 sharp, he was already there waiting for her..
"it's MY birthday and i'm still waiting for u" 5aled complained
Maya thought he was adorable
"hehe i'm coming 2 minutes bass" Maya loved when 5aled couldn't wait to see her, she felt special.
"ok bsir3a bass mashy bil3adaal" 5aled always cared about her like that
"hahahah ok baby..see u in a bit" she loved how he never made sense when he told her to come quickly and drive slowly at the same time...
"bye sweetheart"
5aled sat on a bench, near the seashore waiting for his beloved Maya, wearing his new blue jeans, and a black Boss long sleeve shirt folded into his elbows, and had gel on his hair..he looked spectacular, very musculin with his sexy scent of his favorite perfume, The One, by Dolce&Gabbanna...he smoked his cigaret while waiting for her, thinking about how nervous she made him feel..

10 minutes later and she was there..stepping out of the car in her red dress.. she looked beautiful, she was like an angel to him..
'how did i get so lucky' he wondered...
he stood up smiling at her..
she walked over to him with a happy, shy smile on her face...
as soon as she put the present on the bench, he came closer to her, pulled her close, and hugged her so tight, it was the best hug ever... it was a hug of warmth, depth, love, and affection
she could feel his heart beating as she lay her head softly across his chest.. they stood like that for about 15 minutes, just hugging each other, feeling each other's body on the other, feeing the warmth, smelling each other's smell.....
time stood still for both of them...
it was the best moment of their life so far...they knew they had more happy moments to come
'this is too good to be true, i think im dreaming' maya thought to herself as she cut loose from 5aled's arms...
they took a journey into each other's eyes, and as they took that journey, they saw the end of it... the happy ending of it...they saw their future, their life together as one whole family, most of all, they saw their reflection...

They sat side by side, holding each other's hands on the beach as the wind blew across their face...
Maya started to feel cold so 5aled put his arm around her...
The feeling was just so great, it was uncompareable...
They sat like that, for a long time talking about everything, just chatting about everything in their minds...

It was soon dinner time, and 5aled had a surprise prepared for her... they walked for a little on the soft sand of the sea, barefeet, with the cold water tickiling their feet...

Suddenly Maya froze.. she couldn't believe what she saw....
she only saw that in the movies...
there was a small table on the middle of the beach, with candles all around it on the sand, and a red rose in the middle of the table...
Maya felt her heart tumble... was it really true? did he really do all this for her? was she living her dream?....
she looked up to him and hugged him so tight that he said "i can't breathe" in a funny voice that only made Maya hug him tighter for a bit longer then let him go...
As soon as they sat down facing eachother.. a waiter appeared out of no where with a big bowl of salad and two plates for them to share...
5aled had already chosen the menue for them both, he knew what she liked, she loved fettuccini, and that's what he ordered for her as her main course, and the dessert was a selection of small pieces of chocolate cake, creme caramel, strawberry tart, and pecan cheesecake...
Maya couldn't ask for more... it was the night of her dreams.. having dinner with the man she loved and whom love her back without being told...
she wanted that moment to last forever... she was confident that they would last.. she had no doubt about it...
and yet...for some reason.. she couldn't remove the Tahani gut feeling... she couldn't stop feeling a bit scared of what that girl inteded to do.. she knew her heart was broken but she definately didn't brake it.. and since the fire was already dead with 5aled, Tahani should've known for herself that they were done, that they reached an end and that it was nobody's fault...
Although Tahani appeared every now and then at the back of Maya's mind, she was having the best time of her life and wanted to absorb every minute of it..and she knew.. she was never going to forget how happy 5aled made her...

Monday, March 16, 2009

My Diary (19)

They reached almost the same time at the restaurant... it was a small, cosy restaurant in the end of a small road where not many people went to...
They entered together, hand in hand, Maya keeping an eye incase she saw someone she knew...
The waiter greeted them with a warm welcoming smile, directed them to their table, gave them the menues and went away for a while... He came back, took their orders and left them to each other once again...
"7illow ilma63am" Maya smiled shyly
"inty m7alyetah" 5aled looked deep into her eyes, serious all of a sudden
Maya smiled as she blushed even more...
Right then and there, he knew this was it...he knew she was the one for him.. the only one who knew him inside out.. the only one he could depend on, rely on, he wanted to take care of her, be there for her when she neededhim, be her shoulder to cry on, her knight in shining armour, she was the girl of his dreams, just as he was the man of her dreams...he wanted her to be his, ONLY his, he wanted her for him, and he wanted the whole world to know that... he was ready.. and tonight was the night he was waiting for for so long...the night he dreamed of.. the night he knew would come when he first laid eyes on her..the night that some peopl waited a lifetime for...
he remembered the maroon box and smiled to himself.. wondering what her reaction was going to be...

The waiter got their food, they ate slowly, enjoying each other's company...staring and smiling at each other between bites...
They finished their food, and ordered chocolate fondu for dessert. Time seemed to pass very fast.
'i wish i could slow time a bit.. make each minute last an hour' thought Maya to herself as she sucked on the strawberry dipped in milk chocolate...
5aled was enjoying what he was looking at... it was better than a natural view, he thought...
She was the prettiest thing he ever saw...
"ta3aly..3indach chocolate hnee" 5aled lowered his voice, which only made it sexier
Maya leaned forward as 5aled wiped the chocolate with his finger over her lip...then sucked his finger tasting the chocolate that only tasted more delicious to him because it came from her lips, from what 5aled wanted to taste so badly....

Maya blushed, as she dipped a small piece of cake in the chocolate this time..
He took out the box from his pocket, and layed it on the table, in front of her..
Maya froze... she didn't know what was inside.. or she assumed?
"5aled...what's this 7abeeby?" Maya asked all shy and excited at the same time..
"something for you.....open it" 5aled smiled..desperate to see her reaction once she knew what it was for...
Maya took the box slowly, opened the neat wrapping, and opend it...
She froze with a shocked smile on her face.... it was a rose gold Cartier love ring..
"wh...wh...whats...this?" Maya asked
"it's because i want to marry you Maya..." 5aled said beginning to feel nervous...'why is she surprised? why didn't she expect it?..Oh God..' 5aled was thinking silently to himself...
"wow" Maya gasped.. "it's beautiful.. i love it" Maya smiled as she wore the ring on her right hand..
"does it fit?" 5aled asked..
"it fits perfectly" Maya looked into his eyes.. looking at the man of her dreams.. the man she fell in love with... the man who made her believe in love..
"so..magilteely.. tetzawijainy??" 5aled asked nervously as he held her hands and kissed the ring on her finger..
just as she was about to answer....
"oh i see you're dating now?"
Maya and 5aled froze...
Her voice was so sharp and dry they could feel the hatred coming from it..
It was her, Tahani....5aled's previous fiance..
"um hii Tahani, shlonach?" 5aled didn't like how she approached them
"b3ad tes2alni shlonach? tabee et3arf shlony? tehtam ya3ny? ya3ny itha gilt lak ana b5air wela maree'9a wela mob zaina.. are u gona give a crap about it?" Tahani raised an eyebrow as Maya stared at her..
"Tahani shfeech? feej shay?" 5aled asked, knowing exactly what was wrong with her.. she was still upset that he dumped her...for Maya..her friend...her ex-friend..
"mafeeny shay..ana b5air 5aled.. Maya shlonach? 3sa mestaansa m3a 5aled? inshalla inty mertaa7a inach 5athtee what was mine.." Tahani shot Maya a hard look
"Tahani bassech 3an il '3ala6.. yalla roo7y 5aleeny ana oo 5a6eebty broo7na" 5aled got so mad at Tahani's behaviour... when was she going to get over him?? 8 months already passed! let her move on and find someone else.. she wasn't his fiance anymore she shouldn't act that way... she was supposed to respect his wants and needs.. and he wanted her out of their lives.. he wanted her to understand that they were over before it even began....
"fine.. i'm going.." Tahani glared at them.."but know this Maya... when you break people apart, it will get back to u... and if it doesn't, i'll make sure it does.."
And with that.. Tahani left the restaurant...leaving them burried in their thoughts, far away from what was supposed to happen...


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Sorry it took me guys long to get back, but the previous week was hectic for me..
Missed u guys ;*********
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My Diary (18)

So the days passed, as weeks ended, and months finished.. Day by day Maya's relationship with 5aled grew stronger. They soon became inseperable (although they didn't go out a lot because of Maya's strict family rules, they talked on the phone 24/7). They talked about EVERYTHING, their childhood stories, school, what they studied, their favorite meal, color, hobbies, future plans, compared each other's personalities, told each other stories about themselves, every single thing you can think of........they talked about it.. they even told each other their top secrets....They enjoyed each other's company on the other side of the line..they liked just saying "hi" to each other, they like just being silent on the phone with each other...they liked everything to do with each other.
Maya and 5aled became the new Noah and Allie (from The Notebook)
They were very much in love.
8 months had passed and Maya and 5aled's relationship evolved into a deep, stronger one. One that was built on strong bases, one that cannot break, one that could survive a tornado, one that grows and grows bigger and deeper with no limits, it goes on unconditionaly..One that was rare and hard to find.

One night, 5aled called Maya and begged her to go out with him, but she said she couldn't she was too scared of her parents finding out or someone seeing them. She always cared about what others would think.. she wanted to do things the right way, the way no one could talk abou her or ruin her reputation. She loved 5aled dearly, but still, she couldn't.
"please Maya 3aad 3shaany...3shaan 5aa6ry" 5aled pleaded
"magdar 5aloody walla a5aaf someone sees us b3dain mayeswa 3laina we get into trouble"
"plzz 9adgeeny ma7ad bekoon hnaak...bass il laila..et3arfeen laish 3ad?" 5aled's voice was so tender she couldn't resist..
"laish?" Maya asked in a soft voice with a smile on her face, she liked hearing him talk, she loved the way his voice would travel from her ear into her heart and soul, through her body, leaving her tingle.
"l2na ilyoum is the day our life would change forever, or i hope so.." 5aled said happy and nervous at the same time..
"laish? shbe9eer?" Maya started to think
"wela shay.. inty bass ta3aaly il ma63am 9adgeeny you won't regret it.. ana a7ibich wa5aaf 3laich akthar min mat5aafeen 3la ro07ich, fa just trust me tonight ok?"
Maya thought about it, she loved 5aled, she knew she was safe with him, but her parents.....
Then she thought 5aled never begged her and insisted on something this much, there had to be something waiting for them...she wanted to know how their lives would change forever by going out with him for one night, 'maybe he was expressing the way he felt about her' she told herself... after considering her situation, she decided.......
"ok...bass plz lets not be late 5aled, tara my parents are serious, they don't joke, i could literally be dead if someone i knew saw me.." Maya was cautious, she always was.
"i know i know 7abeebty, now yalla badly, i'll be there in an hour.. plz don't be late.. you'll see it's worth it" 5aled said a smile crossed his face
"ok darling.." Maya smiled at the thought of seeing him...it gave her butterflies in her stomach
"bye"
"bye"

Maya took a shower as quickly as she could, dried her hair, put on some make up for the night, wore her black pencil skirt with her crispy white shirt that had a ribbon on the neck...it made her neck longer and her figure shapier, she settled on her black Russell&Broomley's high heels, kept her hair down, put on her diamond stud earings, wore her watch, a diamond tennis bracelet, took her handbag and left the house nervous and excited..

5aled on the other hand took a quick shower using his new sexy shower gel, wore his white neatly ironed thob, red '3itra, Gucci black slippers, silver watch, Tiffany cafflings, put on his favorite perfume The One by Dolce&Gabbana, left the house with a huge smile on his face and sparks in his eyes staring at the wrapped maroon box in his hands...he couldn't wait any longer.....he was dying to see her reaction...

Monday, March 9, 2009

My Diary (17)

The week passed by with Maya next to 5aled's side. She never let him out of her sight, she was always there taking care of him while his parents were still out of the country.
They sat, they talked, laughed, ate, had a nice time. Maya forgot all about the pain she felt when she thought she was losing him. He made it all go away.
"hello" said the dr. coming to check on 5aled, "how r u doing today?"
"fine thanks" said 5aled with a smile on his face
the dr. smiled at Maya, and she smiled back, blushing a little, sensing that the dr. sensed something between them.
"u look good today, we'll let u go tomorrow morning" said the dr. with a wink
"REALLY?" Maya jumped in, she was dying for him to leave the hospital.
"yes.." smiled the dr.
"thank god!" said 5aled with a big smile, looking at Maya, while the dr. found his way out.
"did u hear that??" Maya went over to kiss the top of 5aled's head
"yes i did ya b3d galby" he said as looked at her in the eyes, seeing his future.

The next day
Maya got up early that morning, rushed to the bathroom, took a shower, and changed her clothes into fresh new ones, put on some light make up, put a hairband on her hair, and left the house, dialling Lulwa's number
"heeeyyyy" Maya said before Lulwa could even say hello
"hii" Lulwa said in a tired voice
"oh shit u're sleeping... i'm so sorry! i just wanted to tell u... 5aled's getting out of the hospital today, i'm really happy lulu, and sorry i haven't seen u around for long, i've just been so busy with him u know.." Maya felt happy, but guitly at the same time for ditching her friend... 'well, she understands' figured Maya
"its okaaay hun! u go get ur man, and call me when u're done, dont worry about anything, luv u" Lulwa said, making her friend feel better
"luv u too! byee"

Maya reached the hospital as she realized she didn't have anything for breakfast. She got out of the car, and literally ran to 5aled's room. She froze for a second... 'where is he?!' she thought.
His bed was neat and clean, his things were gone, he was gone.. no sign of him.
Maya made her way to the door, confused...
"where are u going pretty girl" his voice shot across the room, as he was walking out of the bathroom fully dressed, wearing jeans and a black Armani t-shirt.
Maya turned quickly and ran over to hug him
"wooow..calm down there" 5aled said, laughing swooping her up
"3baaly re7t 3any" Maya said with a shy smile
"ana aroo7 3anich? ana aroo7 3an 7abeebat galby?" he said looking at her, kissing her cheek
Maya couldn't stop smiling, her lips were smiling, her eyes were smiling, her heart was smiling, and her soul was smiling.
She felt safe, she felt at home, she knew now and then, that 5aled was the one.
"did u have breakfast?" 5aled asked, hoping she would say no so he could have breakfast with her
"no" Maya was still smiling
"then lets go have breakfast" he said as he took her hand and lead the way.
As much as she wanted to keep holding his hand, Maya knew it was wrong, so she slipped her hand away from his and kept walking, he noticed, but didn't say anything, he wanted her to be herself, plus, he liked that she cared about what's right and wrong.
They sat at the cafeteria of the hospital, oreder cheese sandwiches and milk tea, and sat on a small circle table.
They sat facing each other, eating small bites, and looking at each other in between, and smiling.
"Maya" 5aled's voice was deep, "inty t7ibeeny?"
Maya blushed at the question, she did love him but it was hard for her to say it to him because she never said i love you before, she was never in love actually, 5aled was her first, and hopefully her last. So she just nodded instead, avoiding his gaze.
5aled knew this was too much for her, he wanted her to look at him in his eyes and say it, but he just let it go, he knew the time was coming. Soon.
"ana a7ibich, oo 7abaitech min awal ma shiftech" he looked straight into her eyes, making her blush, as he remembered the first time she blushed in front of him at the restaurant. He wanted more memories, he wanted more. He wanted a future with her, he wanted his whole life with her by his side, just like the previous days at the hospital.
He was just about to say something when he saw her. His ex. Tahani.
Maya saw him staring, so she turend to look at what he was looking at, and to her extreme shock, she saw Tahani, her so-called friend whom she took her fiance away from her. At the sight of Tahani, Maya felt sick and nautious and disgusted with her self, and then the rush of mixed emotions from the past hard days, and Tahani and everything flew through her body like a huge flow of waves. She wanted to get up, go back, erase what's happening. The only thing that kept her at her place was the feeling she felt towards 5aled, just a glimpse of what she felt during the days when he was unconscious was enough to let her fight for 5aled, even if it meant losing Tahani.
"Maya?" Tahani said, looking confused
"hii Tahani" Maya mumbled in a low voice
"what is she doing here?" Tahani asked 5aled, prepared for a fight
"she was here with me, she's taking care of me, 'why do you care about her, we're not a couple anymore!' 5aled wanted to add 'she had to understand that' 5aled thought
"oh" Tahani said dumbstruck, "i was just here to see you, i just heard about the accident, but it seems you're okay.. madarait i've been replaced" Tahani shot a look of rage at Maya, and left.
"don't worry" 5aled whispered when Tahani was clearly gone.. "she has no right to do that"
"yaa" Maya said softly, thinking about what just happend
"you know that we only started when Tahani and i were done, right?" 5aled asked, trying to eas Maya's frustration
"yes, but.."
"and u do know that me and Tahani were never right for each other, right?" 5aled interrupted
"yes, and.." Maya tried to finish, but 5aled interrupted her again
"so then why all the frustration 7abeebty, 5ala9 e7na we're in love, let her accept that. Everything is hard at first to adjust to.." 5aled said in a soft tone that eased Maya's mind.
"ya u're right.." Maya thought about it..

Maya spent the day with Lulwa, after having breakfast with 5aled. He went home to rest. Every few hours Maya would call him and ask if he was okay or if he needed anything...
He said he liked hearing her voice, and was glad they were working it out...
He had a feeling Maya was it.
And she had a feeling 5aled was her first and last.

Later that night, when Maya got ready for bed, she tought about what 5aled said, and she agreed with him.. 'it's not like i stole him from her, we're not kids anymore.. he was the one who left her..i'm sorry for her, i honestly am, but what else can i do.. they weren't right for each other.. what was i supposed to do? and how could i control my feelings?...his feelings??...
This all happend when they were over..when he broke up with her, and i still tried avoiding him... til when am i going to kill my feelings and happiness for others...' Maya thought to herself, and went to sleep thinking of 5aled.

She woke up the next morning with a huge smile on her face...
little did she know what was about to come from her so called "friend".



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