My Diary (11)

Tahani was so excited to see 5aled, she couldn't believe he called and asked to see her. He stopped doing that in a long time. 'Things are going to get better' she thought as she got dressed. She chose her Bebe silk flower top, with a black tight skinny jeans, Sergio Rossi high heel sandals, put on eyeliner, eyeshadow (she made extra effort with her makeup this evening) glittery lipgloss, pink blush (that suits her skin tone well), she wore a necklace that 5aled gave her as an engagement present as soon as they got engaged, (other than her ring of course), diamond stud earings, and her Van Cleef and Arples watch. She took her Hermes bag from the side of her dressing table, put on her favorite perfume (Miracle, Lancome) and left the house.
'I'm going to give him a chance, akeed ohwa 7ass fe nafsa ina he was too harsh with me the last couple of weeks, akeed mit2asif' she smiled to herself as she turned on the radio.
'i'll start with him a new start, i'll be a new person...' she kept thinking, 'i'll make him happy'....

5aled reached Zoe's, and saw Tahani's car parked outside, it was 8:10pm which means he was 10 minutes late (as usual). His heart started to beat faster, he took a deep breath and entered the restaurant. 'I have to do this' he told himself.

10 minutes later, they ordered their meal and drinks (without starters), and stared at each other.
"Tahani" 5aled began
"na3am 7abeeby" Tahani smiled
'this was a first' he thought 'what's gotten into her, she never called me 7abeeby'
"fe maw'9oo3 abee akalmich feeh...'this is harder than i thought' he thought to himself
"aamer, gool 5aloody, sh3indak" Tahani looke deep into his eyes
"e7m" 5aled cleared his throat, playing for time..he wished there was another way he could do this, but there wasn't.
"inty mestaansa? m3aay, m3a ilmustaqbal ily ben3eesh feeh?" 5aled said carefully
"ee 7abeeby i am, laish tes2al?" Tahani didn't see that coming
"...."5aled kept quiet looking down at the table
"i know ena e7na we're not the best, lovey dovey couple, bass we'll work it out, don't worry"
Tahani looked at him, smiling softly
5aled kept looking down, he couldn't look her in the eye, at least for now
"il maw'9oo3 ily kint abee akalmich feeh, ohwa 3any ana" 5aled started
Tahani looked confused...she didn't know what was coming next, she didn't know what to expect, whether it was something good, or bad...
"ana min il bidaaya il9araa7a ma kint mertaa7, mo minich inty, bass madry..fe shay baina naage9" 5aled sighed..."mat7eseen?" he said it in a way that told her this was the end, there's no turning back..
Tahani was shocked, she went cold......
She wished she was in a bad dream and would wake up in any minute. But she wasn't.
Her mouth went dry, her eyes started to water, and still she couldn't say anything...
Now she knew where this was going...
She wanted him to stop before things got worse, before he broke her heart, but it was too late, her heart already cracked...
She sat there, waiting for the worst to come...
"ana agool mane9la7 7ag ba3a'9 Tahani..face it, we're not in love" 5aled knew he was being too harsh on her, but this was hard on him as well..
Tahani felt his last words hit her like a bomb..
She didn't want to cry in front of all the people at Zoe's, she didn't want to make a scene, but she felt like she was going to explode, she wanted to curl up in her bed, cry her eyes out and go to sleep..so she got up, fighting back her tears, looked at him one last look that broke his heart as well, and walked out of there without even finishing her food.
5aled didn't want things to end with her that way, but he felt that he had to...he wanted to live his life the right way, to the fullest extent... and he knew Tahani would thank him one day, because she deserved better..and so did he.
He wanted to be happy, he wanted to be by her side, he wanted to be with her, and that's how he was going to be happy. This was what his life should've been like a long time ago. With Maya in it. He was with the wrong person for a long time, as far as he can remember, and that was going to change.
5aled forced himself to finish his food, since he was in a restaurant. He knew what he did was right, maybe the wrong way, but right. For both of them, one day Tahani would understand.
He sat there, drinking his coffee after his meal, (he needed caffiene, he had a strong headache)thinking about how to get her. 'Now that Tahani wasn't in the picture, surely she'd agree to be with me..right?'

Tahani ran up to her room, tears streaming down her face, kicked off her heels, threw her handbag on the floor, changed furiously almost ruining her silk top, wore hey pj's and jumped into bed, covering her face with her blanket and crying and crying and crying.
She cried for hours, just thinking about him and what he said, and that she's no longer his fiance anymore...that he hurt her when she was willing to change herself and put up a lot of his unpleasant behaviour just to make him happy...
she replayed the conversation they had over and over again in her mind, and each time she remembered his last words "face it we're not in love" she cried even harder....
3 and a half hours of non stop crying, she picked up her fone and dialled her number.
She needed to talk to her, she needed to tell her what happened....most of all, she needed her friend.

Incoming call: Tahani
"aloo" Maya said in a lazy voice, she was in bed, she wanted to sleep early that night since she was going to have breakfast at her aunty's house
"alo..ooo...oo..hoo.."Tahani sobbed
"omg Tahani wha'ts wrong?" Maya sat straight up in her bed, opening the lamp beside her
"hee...he...b...b...brokeupwithmeeee" Tahani kept sobbing, her words were blurred by her crying but Maya managed to understand what she was saying
"omg Tahani babe i'm so sorry...do u need me to come over?" Maya felt torn between being sad for her friend, and happy for herself. (She knew what this meant...)
"Tahani plz lat9ee7een....i'll come over tomorrow, you can tell me what happend" Maya tried comforting her friend...
Tahani kept sobbing....

Maya couldn't help it, she cried silently as she listened to her friend talk about her life falling apart and her future breaking into tiny pieces...