My Diary (6)

That week was hectic for Maya, she had so many things to do. She had her cousin's engagement party to go to, her mother's (mini) birthday party that took place at her grandmother's house, lunch with her family on Friday, went to the movies with Lulwa and some girls....lots of things were done that week. In a good way, it occupied Maya from thinking about him...

On the other hand..

5aled could not take his mind off Maya, she was all he thought about, whenever, wherever, with whoever, he always thought about him, and that made him change with Tahani..
He started not answering all of her calls, he stopped telling her how pretty she looked. Everything he used to do before, became less now, and the worst thing is, Tahani could feel it.
Tahani felt him being distant lately, she knew something wasn't right but she couldn't put her finger on it..

From the beginning of their engagement (Tahani and 5aled), she knew something was missing, but because it was her first time in a relationship she didn't know the difference...
'This is how men are like' she told herself, 'it's just his personality' she would tell herself wheneve she didn't like what he did.
5aled and Tahani matched each other perfectly, but not from the inside.
Their personalities were totally different, it was like oil and water, they can't mix no matter how hard you try.
Tahani tried to put up with it, but since he's starting to change so obviously, she couldn't any longer...
she sat there, in her room in the dark just thinking about what went wrong with 5aled, and why is he the way he is right now...
She couldn't come up with any reason, plus 5aled didn't do anything wrong, his personality doesn't blend with hers, that's it.
'i'm not leaving him, it's just a matter of time, people go through things, he might be going through a hard time right now, and i need to back off to let him have his space...maybe that's the best idea, after all....he DID come propose to me, not the other way around.' she thought to herself sadly..so she decided to give him the 'space' he needed...

Before bed, 5aled sat and thought a long time about his life, his future, his dry relationship with Tahani, his uncontrollable feelings for Maya...
He had to come up with a conclusion, he had to do something about it because he didn't like it at all; and it wasn't fair for Tahani..
'better now that never' he thought..

After thinking and thinking alone to himself, he came up with an answer, he had to find an answer, he needed the answer to know what to do, to move on as a young man in hislife, to look for a new start...